2016 will be a year remembered like no other apparently, but I'm not here to talk about all that happened. More my year snapping away, how I fell out with things I loved to shoot, and found what I wanted and should be have shooting. How it happened and what happens next.
A year which gave me the chance to join the dots, work out what worked for me. How made the decisions and how I got my eyes. It started easy enough, more landscape, forests, mountains that's was the plan. Off out into the wild it was all good stuff but, I still didn't feel connected I didn't wake up thinking, YES!!! lets plan. It was more OK I don't get amped for sunsets, or such. Now I'm not saying there's a lack of engagement for that stuff but, I struggled to find narratives.
Unless it was rainy, foggy, reminded me of horror and si-fi flicks it was dare I say a chore to motivate. Heres the thing, this all sounds really dour and negative, not at all. Everything happened and with good reason I really had a blast snapping away, it just seemed earlier in 2016 it wasn't what I should have shot.
See, here's the thing I chased and tried to force myself into areas of photography that just stopped moving me or just failed to keep my mind happy. But you keep snapping away some of it sticks, lots didn't. As the months moved forward I searched high low for a clue, nothing. But then slowly it was calling me, there had to be a logical fit everybody has one right? I walked round football stadia pre game, a totally enjoyable and fun thing that you should try. Football though has left me cold over the years and i didn't feel the love from way back when I was a kid. So you scratch your head confusion, frustration, thinking where are you??! Every other Sunday watching racing cars on TV, then going out snapping more Landscape, more football but not seeing the connection that every other Sunday there was something that kept you so tied and locked in you missed the link.
And still every other Sunday I would watch cars make shapes, defy physics, watch talented brave types pushing. Slowly it hit home, not having to push itself, often seeing my mind drift to thinking shutter speed or a corner. Slowly it hit home, colours tone texture. There was a point during the 2016 F1 season where I didn't actually watch the race I spent two hours looking at corners, kerbs, the landscape from a photo making perspective. I don't remember which race it was but I remember thinking, there's a shot, there's a shot. Bang!!! that was it a natural absorption of where my eyes lay. My childhood watching, Senna, Prost, Piquet had endured to the point were it was all second nature but I had missed the link as it was maybe too obvious? Finally I had it, so with that it was off to see how I would fare. Safe to say comfort zone was fine, challenge massive hampered only by nagging doubt on whether it would work
Pre-Visualisation came easy, as I mentioned earlier i'd struggled in 2016 with pre seeing scenes due to a lack of real connection. This was different, constantly looking, thinking writing, stuff down. How do I want tell my story of motor racing? How do I see that world ? Will people feel it? Crazy but its working, crazy I didn't see it sooner, crazy that I was too into following a trend or crowd for internet likes. Now it feels like the shackles are off and with that onto 2017, time to smash that ceiling share my love of cars and motorsport
Trick is try it you never know, you don't need special passes or hook ups, think of the each trip as an editorial adventure. Picking subjects or a theme to play with help me, colours are great the endless scope of colour is nuts. Shutter speed, tricks from landscape work, ICM and long exposure all come into play. Now, now I get it everything starts back up in March until then more learning fine tuning the chase continues.